Paxil Birth Defects, PPHN and Infant Death

I took paxil 20 mg for depression d/t my daughter's death. The doctor told me that it was very safe to take. So I took it when he was born he had projectile vomiting so at 6 months of age he was sent to madison children's hospital at that time they diagnosed him with no testicles and eventually will have to go on medication for this as well. Then since he has been old enough he has had Terrible temper tantrums and has hurt people with this as well. I am very down, the depression is a lot worse. My oldest son is afraid of him as we don't know when he will blow up and throwing and hitting everyone. Not to mention the expense part of it all and the wear and tear on vehicles . let alone what he feels inside. It is hard for me to think how much financially it has cost us.

According to the NICU doctor at CHildren's Hospital in Columbus, Ohio, the heart defect occured the first 10 days after conception. My daughter was born with a heart murmur in which she was sent to Children's Hospital in Columbus, Ohio. She was diagnosed with Ebstein's Anomoly of the tricuspid valve and pumonary stenosis. She slept all the time and it took alomst an hour to feed her 1-2 oz of formula. At times, she appeared a little blue. She spent one week at the hospital for observation and then was sent home. I went to a cardiologist appointment her third week. The doctor at that point did not like what he saw. She was sent back down to Children's. She was dying at this point. All it would have took was a hard cry or some other stressful situation to put her into respiratory and cardiac failure. The third week a balloon was used to open the pulmonary valve. After the procedure, she was a totally different baby. Everything improved drastically after almost losing her for good. She was sent home within a few days with regualr cardiologist appointments. Currently, she is doing fine, but she will always have to be seen by a cardioogist. She will also have to take antibiotics for any surgeries or dental work for the rest of her life. I was told that she will always have to work harder that a normal person to maintain a healthy heart.

After delivering my daughter, I did not get the opportunity to bond with her in my room. I had to go down to the nursery to see her due to various tests being performed on her. I had almost no sleep after being in labor for 25 hours. I was unable to sleep after delivery due to the anxiety of what was wrong with my daughter. I was then discharged less than 15 hours after delivery in order to follow my daughter to Children's Hospital. My family and I had to drive 2 hours to Children's around 1 am after getting no sleep the night before or that day. My daughter was sent by ambulance ahead of us. Since I was discharge early, I did not get all the teaching I would have received normally at the hospital. It was difficult being a first time mother and not knowing what to expect postpartumly. When I arrived at the hospital, I was too tired to do much bonding with my baby. I felt like I had not bonded at all with my daughter the entire first day. The second day was spent at her bedside and worrying about where my family and I were going to stay that night. My parents had to put money out for a place to stay, food, and gas since I had no money. I was a college student and was put on bed rest 20 weeks into my pregnancy. My parents also lost time from work to be there for support. I went through alot of emotional hardship trying to deal with this situation. I went into depression and had thoughts of suicide. I felt like I lost all control over the situation and my daughter's. My future husband and I went through a very rough time due to this situation. We started arguing quite a bit due to the stress. We both felt all this extra burden and weight as new parents. This situation added to that. All of this happened the first week and was repeated the third week. The week in between was full of stress beyond the normal new parent stress. I took almost an hour to feed her 1-2 oz of formula every 3-4 hours. She has to be undressed to keep her awake to feed since it took so much energy for her. She was very fussy. She would also turn blue which would scare me to death. I was only gettin 2-3 hours a sleep a night. The second stay was very scary since my daughter was in a life threatening situation. The following months involved doctors appointments a more worrying. I had to jiggle my schedule for 2 hour appointments at the cardiologist. By this time I was back in school and at work. I had to ask off work in order to make a couple of the appointments. It also ment extra gas. The first few months were very emotional for me. I contantly was checking on her to make sure she was all right. I never new when things were going to change.